i'm back...and dumbfounded

i have been so terribly overwhelmed and busy lately. i haven't had time to do anything! sorry for the 1 person who reads my blog :) and this is little bit on her first bowling night. she actually did really well. we just passed her off a LOT
so let me update you on life:
1)Little bit is great. she is becoming ever increasingly a toddler. curious beyond belief, mischievous beyond belief, and adorable beyond belief. her speech is becoming quite good. i have a bad habit of saying "oh, God" and she repeated that the other day along w/ "oh my Lord." it is cute but i have to be careful :) this week "outside" has almost been perfected. i'm very impressed! she burnt her fingers last tuesday. i had gotten out of the car and put her on the ground. i told her to come to me (i was standing at the back door and she was near the front of the car) and she started walking. i turned to get the groceries out and she starts screaming. she stopped pretty quickly so i figured a pinched finger, no big deal. over the next half hour or so she'd grab her hand and cry. i finally looked really closely and realized there were blisters on her 1st 3 fingers. evidentally she grabbed my brake rotor. wednesday i put her down when i got her out of the car and she walked a good 5 feet away from the tire :) learned her lesson...she has also mastered the art of climbing stairs. she will still get nervous and get down and crawl but she can pretty much walk up them like a big girl.
2)i'm in a wedding tomorrow...yes, that wedding. we had the rehearsal dinner tonight and i got the biggest stab in the back i've ever had in my life (here i go whining again). she has been engaged for about 17months (longest engagement ever). before she got engaged, i was going to be her maid of honor (matron i guess actually), after she got engaged, it was still me. 6 or 8 months ago--still me as we talked about me having to walk up the aisle w/ her future father in law. tonight--i'm not the matron of honor anymore. i told my husband on the way to the rehearsal that i felt like a bad matron of honor b/c i don't have time to go hang out and pick out flowers, invitations, etc. and take care of my 18month old, my husband, and 2 jobs...it just can't happen. i told him that i wished she would've picked someone else but she didn't. she picked me and i hated i couldn't do more (i did throw her a shower). so we get there and the director is going over who goes where and looks at 2 girls and says "ok, renee-you're the maid of honor and rebecca-you're the matron of honor?" they both said yes. i turned and looked at my husband w/ the absolute most dumbfounded look i could muster. i couldn't believe it--still can't actually. i don't mind not being the maid/matron of honor but i mind not being let in on the secret. did you see the office last night? i guess i'm the secret matron of honor that no one else knows about. well, i resigned my name from the running anyway (didn't see the office? download it on itunes--it's worth it). i have never felt more humiliated, stabbed in the back, betrayed, let down, angry, you name it, i felt it! and what was i supposed to do? stop the whole thing and say something? embarrass her (or myself even further)? nope, i just had to stand there and seethe. i'm still seething. my insides are just burned up! and not only am i not maid/matron of honor--she picked 2 people over me and i am now the LAST bridesmaid (the one you don't really want but have to have so you stick her at the end). so i played the only childish card i could--she said "well, i'll see you in the morning" (we originally planned to be at the church around 11am to help her get ready and take getting ready pics, etc) and i responded w/ "we'll be here by 1" (meaning 1pm or the same time pictures start and we have to be there). and i say "we" meaning my husband and i b/c he's also in this disaster of a wedding. i wish i would've backed out when the dress issue came up. i'd just like one answer--when was i demoted from my post? has everyone known about this for awhile now and i was the only one not in the loop or is this a new thing? this will come up in a future confrontation...be on the lookout for that post. if her wedding wasn't tomorrow and i wouldn't freak her out, i'd be on the phone now (or 3 hours ago).

3)i saw shrek the 3rd tonight. it was cute. my husband and i figured while we had the babysitter for the night, we'd take advantage of it. i miss the movies. we went 42 times the first year we dated (yes, we were geeks).

4) we are still cloth diapering. i love love love it! and am SOOOOOO addicted.